[ Sorry Lup. No escape from her compliments. For living life the way she had, to enduring it all, to still be such a person despite it all, and to inspire others by simply being such a force of will. ]
... well. All I would want is for him to... have a life, and I've no intent to give up on that. To not feel as though he must... perform to nonexistent expectations here. To not continue to hold his life in any less regard to others. Is that too much?
We're not the ones who get to decide what is or isn't too much for him. I don't think it is, though, personally. It's the kind of thing any mother would want for her child. At least, based on my understanding of motherhood.
Not just "any" mother. We do not all come with the sense that you have from experience... as much as it is reassuring to hear you say so.
[ Lup had more understanding because she was more knowledgeable of people She didn't have to be in the "mother" category for that. Honerva was still too new to figuring out what was right. ]
Okay, let me amend that. Any maternal figure that gives a shit about her spawn, which is not a universal trait but can be learned over time, against all obstacles. Give yourself some credit for how far you've come to this point.
[ Because of course Lup was, as much as she was maintaining her contact with Lotor, she gives Lup's hand a significant squeeze again. ]
I can't promise not to stress, but... perspective helps. What matters right now is that he recovers from this. That is at least something I can help with.
[ Not the first time she's said it, won't be the last, but the gratitude is genuine, as she adjusts her positioning, exhaling softly, while Kova hops up to comfort and investigate. ]
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... well. All I would want is for him to... have a life, and I've no intent to give up on that. To not feel as though he must... perform to nonexistent expectations here. To not continue to hold his life in any less regard to others. Is that too much?
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[Limited as it may be.]
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[ Lup had more understanding because she was more knowledgeable of people She didn't have to be in the "mother" category for that. Honerva was still too new to figuring out what was right. ]
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[ But some of the strain has lifted, at least. She's still afraid, but Lup is there. ]
But I am grateful to be able to... feel things like this, even if it does lead to worries and questions.
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[ Because of course Lup was, as much as she was maintaining her contact with Lotor, she gives Lup's hand a significant squeeze again. ]
I can't promise not to stress, but... perspective helps. What matters right now is that he recovers from this. That is at least something I can help with.
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[Lup pats her hand where they're joined and slides off the bed, stepping away.]
I'll get some tea and a cold compress for his fever. Try to take it easy for now, we'll get through this.
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[ Not the first time she's said it, won't be the last, but the gratitude is genuine, as she adjusts her positioning, exhaling softly, while Kova hops up to comfort and investigate. ]